Responsibilities

I really want to bitch about how other people dont take care of their responsibilities and how that effects me, but I must mention that Im not perfect. I have been layed off for a bit now and have not found a job. I also do not want to work at some fast food joint or at WalMart, so I hope you can understand my searching still. Side story for a moment.......I am very bullheaded when it comes to things. I like to do things myself and not rely on others, which has gotten me into the situation I am in now. Ok so, I just wish when I finally have to ask for help that I would get alittle. And all Im asking for is my kids father to pay his child support. I never say anything, even when he gets months behind. But after losing my job I went to him and told him how I really needed him to pay cause I just couldnt cover it all by myself right now. Also on top of the losing job I had lost my roommate. So here I am crying asking for help and I he says he will. Like another month later and still no help I ask again and he says that they took some of his taxes and I would be getting that. Granted this still does not catch up the 5 months he is behind. Well now child support has the money but is holding on to it for another month, look they dont even trust the IRS.
When I first lost my job I wanted to stay on unemployment to spend some time with my kids and to take my previous employer for everything I could. And truely I wish I could stay on it through the summer so I could hang with my kiddos, but know I cant. So knowing that I must get a job this week, I was all pumped to make today be that day. Not so much. Yesterday the day they should have gone to their dads for a week, he tells me hes still on his way back from New York getting his sister. He cant get them till tonight at the earliest. So there went that idea. He doesnt even care that I have things I needed to be doing today. Oh well I guess I will take advantage of this as one of those summer days I get to spend with the kids. I really hope people will stop being stupid, ha, just for the day and maybe I will have something better to say later................